I'm doing too much. Too many things and jobs and gigs and clubs and teams. And I can't drop any of it. So I guess life is shitty right now and that's it. All of my friends are sad and they come to me for all of it, but where do I go? I don't have anywhere. I don't have a place or a corner of the world.
I don't have a bed. I sleep on the couch. I barely have a family or a house anyways. With the way my dad lives, I might soon not have a house at all. I just need to move out. I need to get my own place and live alone. That's all I want to do. But I just can't, which is stupid because I'm smarter and more mature than half of the adults in my life anyways.
I have drill, community service, girlscouts, dance class, swim team, literature club, DND, and a billion other things on top of that. The things I can drop, I don't want to, and the thing I want to, I can't. But I need to just suck it up.
The bad thing is that sucking it up is really, really, really hard.
My back is wet and my hair is stringy from the rain. Sorry for such a short post, not that anyone reads these anyways. Also sorry that I only write when I'm sad.
Goodbye, and see you soon.
xoxo mbanks
